The Eve of Everything

Not only do I leave for Israel tomorrow, I also am now an official Peace Corps invitee.  Which is nerve wracking. Because. I don't know where I'm going.  Due to a medical hold on my account, instead of just being invited to be a volunteer and then being given a placement, there's an extra step.  Once I am placed, my file has to be sent to the APCD (associate peace corps director) for that post to approve my file medically for whatever requirements the peace corps medical review people feel that I need - 3 hours from a hospital, a day from a specialist, etc. (clearly I still don't know exactly what they feel is appropriate).  So this is what I know.

- my file has been sent out to at least 3 placements just in case
- they really want me to leave in September
- if I get the one they want for me, it will be in West Africa in a francophone country
- if I get any of them, I leave September 25
- all of the programs are agriculture/ agroforestry (They're letting me do ag!!!!)
- the program they want for me is likely to accept me because they have a range of posts within the placement including rural, urban, and peri-urban programs.  So I could be in a city! weird!

So it seems like almost everything is settled, right? Except they didn't answer the biggest question of all. as in...

WHERE THE HECK AM I GOING?!

So of course I'm even more of a mess than I was before because I'm so close and so impatient and just want to know that this is all for real real not for play play.  Also.  I still have no concept that I leave for Israel tomorrow.  I'm so close but I really haven't put much thought into it between worrying about Peace Corps and trying to spend as much time as possible with LA before I leave.  I can kind of imagine what it's going to be like to do each of the individual activities but can't imagine the trip as a whole.  Or get any sense of the country.  I have such incomplete information and there's so much I want to know about Israel.  I'm really nervous about getting to my WWOOF sites after I go and getting a phone plan so that I can contact my WWOOF sites and even extending my ticket! I was waiting to hear from Peace Corps so I would know roughly when to get back but since my guess of September 25 was actually 100% correct, I could have made this flight fifty bajillion years ago.  There's so much to do in addition to the birthright trip during my first week in Israel.  I'm going to be a hot mess.  Off to Brooklyn to crash at emma leigh's and then Israel tomorrow.  Maybe if I say it enough times, I'll realize it's true.

I think LA has taken that approach because she keeps introducing me as her friend who's about to leave for Peace Corps (since it's simpler than the whole truth) and I keep looking around expecting to see her other friend.